LORD JESUS,
I am blind, be thou my light,
ignorant, be thou my wisdom,
self-willed, be thou my mind.
Open my ear to grasp quickly thy Spirit’s voice,
and delightfully run after his beckoning hand;
Melt my conscience that no hardness remain,
make it alive to evil’s slightest touch;
When Satan approaches may I flee to thy wounds,
and there cease to tremble at all alarms.
Be my good shepherd to lead me into the green pastures of thy Word,
and cause me to lie down beside the rivers of its comforts.
Fill me with peace, that no disquieting worldly gales
may ruffle the calm surface of my soul.
Thy cross was upraised to be my refuge,
Thy blood streamed forth to wash me clean,
Thy death occurred to give me a surety,
Thy name is my property to save me,
By thee all heaven is poured into my heart,
but it is too narrow to comprehend thy love.
I was a stranger, an outcast, a slave, a rebel,
but thy cross has brought me near,
has softened my heart,
has made me thy Father’s child,
has admitted me to thy family,
has made me joint-heir with thyself.
O that I may love thee as thou lovest me,
that I may walk worthy of thee, my Lord,
that I may reflect the image of heaven’s first-born.
May I always see thy beauty with the clear eye of faith,
and feel the power of thy Spirit in my heart,
for unless he move mightily in me
no inward fire will be kindled.
(Taken from Valley of Vision)
i long for you jesus but i am so lost every time i try to get close to you i fall and i have no one to blame but myself my sin has seperated me from you and i miss you i hate that i constantly choose evil over you the fact that i still want to do what i want to do bothers me cause i feel like i can not and will not do right by cause my own selfish reasons and lord i do try but the more i try the harder it gets i know you said flee evil but i dont i go right to it am i that evil why do i put so many things before you whats wrong with me lord i know right from wrong but yet i still choose to do what you tell me not to do and i wonder why i feel this way god i want to change before it is to late please help me again i need you your right lord i cannot live without you and im sorry please forgive me for my wickedness please help me to do the right thing this time around please give me another chance please i know you see all the wrong inside of me all the things that are not of you that i do and what i hold in my heart i want to change for you god i want to make you proud of me before i leave this world please keep me dont let me go please im so sorry ineed to come back home where i am safe in your arms again please lead me back home to you
Dear Ebony: My heart breaks to hear your plea to our Lord and Savior. As I read your words they reminded me of the apostle Paul in Romans 7 with the grand conclusion in 8:1. God has forgiven you – for ever. The new life He has given you is eternal life. Please believe that there is nothing you can do to make Him cast you aside. He is faithful to His Word. I know of what I speak, Ebony. I was angry at the Lord for 23 years before He restored me to Himself. I was a missionary, pastor, Bible Teacher, etc. and still let the devil get to me. God is so gracious. He has obviously drawn you to Himself and has promised to preserve you – Ps 97:10 “You who love the LORD, hate evil! He preserves the souls of His saints; He delivers them out of the hand of the wicked.” Believe this with all of your heart. You are pure in the eyes of God. He has not only pardoned you of your sins but He has even removed your guilt. You are clothed in Jesus’ righteousness. My email is dave.tfhw@gmail.com. If you would like email me with your mailing address and I will send a copy of my book “This My Son” which is the story of how God restored me to Himself. You will also find it at Barnes& Noble, Amazon, etc. If you choose to not write, please believe in the forgiveness of God. You have nothing to do – He has done it all for you. Only believe His Word and spend as much time as you can reading His Word and in prayer. I do not know you but be assured I am praying for you. David